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Random update

I’m taking a break from marking books (grading).

I had an awful day yesterday; I almost cried after my MacBeth class! It wasn’t because the students were being mean or anything like that, it was more the fact that I feel like I’m failing them. This group of students are Year 10, so that means they have their GCSE coursework coming up fast…as in it’s due in two weeks. They weren’t with it at all on Friday and it really bugged me. I felt like I was doing something wrong, the lessons aren’t engaging enough, etc. I’m glad that I didn’t cry, but I just felt awful.

Then there was my Year 7 class. Seriously. It was a rotten Friday. It was so bad I even stood outside with the ninjas (smokers). I didn’t smoke, though. Instead, to cheer myself up, I had a Pepsi. (Incidentally, the Pepsi here tastes better than I remember it tasting ten years ago. Maybe they changed the formula, or maybe it’s ‘cuz I’m drinking it from a can.)

I have decided chores and errands suck in England. Well, before I get ahead of myself, I went to the UniQlo here in Croydon to do a little shopping. Of course, the store is nothing like the ones we had in Japan, but it was still decent. I bought one shirt. I mean, much like every other time I’ve ever gone into UniQlo, I always see things that I like, but I refrain from buying ‘em. I always figure I can come back for them or something. It probably doesn’t help that I keep buying the same colors. Although, I’m trying not to repeat the pink cardigan thing (Darya knows what I’m talkin’ about).

Whilst I was out, I caved and bought an iTunes card so I could finally get some songs I’ve been wanting forever, like “So Says I” by the Shins and “Still Alive”. I also bought the Dr. Horrible soundtrack so I can stop annoying Toni with the same song over and over again. (Now I’ll have the whole soundtrack to choose from! Muhahahahah!)

After going to Shopping (that was intentional), I started finishing up my chores. Before I left for Shopping, I started up my laundry. I maintain that it’s a pain in the ass to do laundry in this country. I also had to go to the supermarket. It was the first time I would be going to the store for more than just a few items.

Yeah it sucked. Then again, I think I felt that way because the girl at the till just seemed so cross. And I don’t like pushing carts at the supermarket. That might have also factored into the experience.

I have seriously got to stop comparing my life here with Japan!

ETA: I remember something else I wanted to gripe about — why is it that America is the only freaking country that has folders?! Seriously. I just need a couple folders! Grrrr…

The Misadventures: the British Museum and Japanese London

From last Saturday

I had resolved to do something touristy last week; I decided that this Saturday, I would go into London and visit the British Museum.

I had some errands to run before I could actually make it into London, though. Trying to get those done was certainly something else. It started by a bus completely passing me by even though I did the whole stand at the stop and wave my arm thing that seems to be the indication to drivers that I’m waiting for that bus number. I think I ended up waiting for like thirty minutes for bus when I should have only waited ten. It only reinforced the fact that I’m not super impressed by the public transportation of England.

I eventually got to where I kind of needed to go. I was meant to go to Caterham, but the buses in my area only serve Caterham-on-the-Hill. When I had asked co-workers about how I’d get into Caterham using public transport, they all said I’d have to take a blue bus, meaning a non-Oyster card City of London bus. That was fine by me, I just had to find the bus first.

Okay, so I didn’t find the bus, but I did get directions and it really wasn’t that bad of a walk down into the valley (and yes, I mean a valley — the place isn’t called Catherham-on-the-Hill for no reason!).

Yay! I got money! Money is always a good thing.

I was feelin’ pretty good about the fact that I got paid, so I hopped a train from Caterham Station and took it up to East Croydon Station. Technically, I could have stayed on the train I was already on, but it was headed to London Bridge and I had plotted my route from London Waterloo so I got off at East Croydon to try and catch a different train. At least the trains kind of work for me; I’d still much prefer some kind of marking like “Local” or “Rapid”, but I happened to catch a speedy train into the Waterloo so it all worked out for me.

Once I got to the station, I caught the tube. I was all kinds of proud of myself for not having to ask for any directions when I got to the underground. The last time I’d been there, I wanted to make doubly sure I was going in the right direction and the like. I didn’t even have to buy a ticket — my Oyster Card worked on the tube as well! It’s a good thing I put £10 on it last weekend.

I wish I could say I didn’t need directions once I got to Tottenham Court Road, but that would be a damn dirty lie. Then again, even when I did ask for directions, the guy at the news stand pretty much pointed down the road and didn’t say I needed to turn anywhere.

Eventually, I got there, though. The first thing I saw was the Rosetta Stone. I could have left right then and there, ya know? Of course I didn’t, but it was one of the objects that made the trip all worth it yeah?

It’s hard to describe everything that I got to see. I mean, I probably could have spent the whole day on the first floor alone! Technically, it wasn’t like I had anywhere to go, but I wanted to explore a bit. I wandered around the first floor for a while, mostly taking in Egypt; it wasn’t long before I got hungry, though.

I think one of the things I liked about the museum was all the language I heard being spoken; it was strangely comforting to be surrounded by tourists. I can’t really explain it, but this doesn’t quite feel like home yet, ya know?

I was incredibly proud of myself for not freaking out eating alone. I usually feel way uncomfortable, but it really wasn’t all that bad. I got the lunch special, which I think was gamon steak with chips (British usage) and carrots. It was pretty good so I was pretty bummed by the fact that I could finish it.

It was off to more wandering thereafter. I figured I should start at the top and work my way down, so I scurried up to the third floor. Now, I know that the British Museum has an extensive collection from the Ancient World and Classical Greece and Rome, but I was more interested in the history of Britain so that’s where I headed first.

I couldn’t help but think of Beowulf as I wandered around the Europe exhibits. They had artifacts from a place called Sutton Hoo, and I think the helmet that was on display has been used as an image for Beowulf covers, but I could just be making that up because of the general style.

I’m not gonna lie, I also marveled at the fact that they had examples of utensils from the Bronze Age. I mean, most folk think the people back then just used their hands all the time or something, but clearly they had utensils. How cool is that?

I was disappointed that I didn’t see any suits or armor or swords. I wonder if those are kept at an art museum the way it is in Chicago or something. Not that the place sucked, I was just hopin’ to see stuff from the Middle Ages.

While I was on the Europe floor, I foolishly decided to see what the Japan exhibit had to offer. That was a huge mistake. I ended up aching for Japan again. How sad is it that I’m in a new country, and I still miss Japan so much?

I left Japan after a brief breeze through for Greece. I enjoyed looking at all the pottery ‘cuz a lot of it showed the myths I’d studied in school.

The mummy floor was super crowded so it was kinda hard to really see a lot. And we all know how I feel about crowds, so I kinda ducked out of that floor kinda quick too.

So yeah, I spent a good few hours in the museum. I left around 4 or so. There was a Starbucks across the street, so I thought I’d get a mocha and write a letter to one of my friends in California. I mean, I used to do that kind of stuff all the time when I lived in Japan, so it seemed only fitting I do so again in England.

I chose a really bad time to go over ‘cuz not long after getting into the queue, everybody else and their brother decided to get coffee too. In fact, there was a delay in my order and I ended up standing about for like ten minutes whilst the people who had ordered after me got their drinks first. It was mildly annoying. I was also worried about finding a place to sit down, but I was lucky in that I was alone so I could sit at a small table.

After killing about forty five minutes, I decided I ought to wander some more. I flirted with the idea of just heading back to the flat, but my sense of adventure won out.

I didn’t go back the way I’d come since it was a roundabout way to begin with, so I just wandered down one of the sidestreets, figuring I’d come to a main road eventually.

And then it started. I passed a bunch of Japanese-themed restaurants on my way back to the main road. So not helping. Then, when I got back to the station and wandered down the other side of the street, I saw a Muji. I was actually kinda excited about that ‘cuz I thought maybe they carried the body wash I liked; unfortunately for me, it wasn’t like the four-floor store in Osaka and their selection was a bit smaller than what I’m used to.

On the bright side of it all, I think I found the book district or something ‘cuz I swear there was a bookstore at just about every turn. Naturally, I went into all them, including the Borders.

But the best bookstore I found was Foyles. At first, I just passed it up ‘cuz I had never heard of it before. But after having dinner at one of the Japanese restaurants (seriously, they were like everywhere), I decided to step in.

Boy am I glad I did! I’m not kidding when I say they have the largest selection of books I’d ever seen. Take the plays section for example, I thought it was just one book case. Then I turned the corner, and the other corner. I’ve only seen a selection like that at a public library! They even had a whole case just for shooting scripts!!

I so wanted to buy a book! Unfortunately for me, I’m back in a book funk. Besides, it’s hard to read for fun when I have to read for school and all. When I get a little time, though, I am absolutely going back there!

So basically, that was my misadventure in the City of London. I got to do something really touristy, and the city is apparently telling me to go back to Japan. At least, that’s how I interpreted all the Japanese restaurants, the Japanese language school I found, and the fact that there was a Muji. :-P

That’s a damn dirty lie!

So for the past month, every Wednesday has been an all staff meeting after school for various types of training. We’ve had sessions on behaviour management for the last two, one on multiple intelligences, and…actually, I can’t really remember the first one ‘cuz it was my first day of school and I was still jet-lagged.

Today’s was a bit different in that they split us off into different groups, the ones who were on the leadership team, the newly qualified teachers like myself and Shelby, and the ones who weren’t quite in either of the groups who were sent off to a tech training session. Before we split up, though, Mr McCullagh went through the different support systems that he set up. I gotta say, one of my favorite things about this school is the amount of support given to the faculty. What Mr McCullagh did, based on last week’s teaching and learning audit, was put together teams of three people who would be able to try and feed off each other. Essentially, it’s a way to promote cross learning zone (department) interaction and collaboration.

For example, in my group, I am with a veteran teacher who is a no-nonsense type of fellow when dealing with behaviour and “naughty” students and a Maths teacher. Now, here’s the part that’s a damn dirty lie; because of my “creative” lesson that Mr McCullagh and Mrs Rivaldi observed last week, he thinks I’ll be able to help my colleagues with some ideas on how to make their class more interesting. I kinda panicked about that ‘cuz seriously, that lesson was a fluke! I mean, sure, it was a really great lesson that I enjoyed teaching…but I maintain that the only reason it worked was because I have a drama background and I’m able to adapt this kind of stuff easily. People keep giving me more credit than I think I deserve, and I’m not talking incurable crazy! I swear, if Chris O came in and observed one of my lessons, she’d like totally revoke my teaching cert.

So yeah, we were split up into the three different groups, but Shelby and I didn’t have anywhere to go. Apparently, the academy doesn’t have all our information, but you would think they would figure we’re overseas trained teachers…it’s quite obvious when you hear us talk! We ended up tagging along with all the other newly qualified teachers (NQT).

Mr McCullagh encouraged both of us to pick a qualification program to get into, especially if we plan on staying at the academy.

We got to talking with some other NQT’s. The dance teacher said we ought to do the same program as our faculty buddy (the person we go to when we have admin questions) because Selina is Australian qualified and the program she’s in would probably best suit our needs as well.

The more we all started talking about it though, the more I realized I still have no idea what I want to do. Chane asked me if I was thinking of sticking around and I didn’t know what to tell her. At this particular moment in time, I want to. But that could change at any moment yeah?

I know what you’re thinking. Just join a program and if I end up coming home, then what’s the harm. Well, I can tell you right now it will bother me. It sounds borderline jack assy, but I don’t want to waste my time and stress out about whether or not I’ve gathered all the evidence — qualification in England seems FAR more complicated than it does in America. Seriously, I’m already freaked out about stuffs as it is, I don’t want to unnecessarily add onto it.

Anyway, it appears I have some more stuff to think about.

I ought to start looking into creative Maths ideas…

Breaking surface

Every time I think I’m about to break the surface, some big ass wave comes and tries to drown me again.

We had another department meeting after school today and we went over how to grade. I thought I had to jump through a lot of hoops when I was in America, but the Brits have the hoops set on fire and then they have to try and avoid landing on broken glass. At least everyone else has a clue, whereas Shelby and I are feeling a bit overwhelmed. If it’s not the lesson planning and marking (they have a really complicated way of grading), it’s the GSCE’s we’ve never taken or the OFSTED.

And yet, I’m still here. For whatever reason I haven’t given up, and the people I’ve talked to have all said that I’m doing fine and stuff like that.

But I still feel like I’m failing these kids on some level. I’m not doing enough to make sure they’re supported yeah? I really suck at differentiating the work. I’m aiming way too high and not scaling it back enough.

It’s hard but if anything, it makes me want to help the students more.

I’ve never been very good at holding my breath underwater, but at least I’m not completely in the deep end.

I miss drama

So last Thursday, I was feeling pretty down about the fact that I had to have my observation redone. It turned out to be better this way because the lesson that was observed was a drama activity.

When last I saw my Year 11 students, we were slowly and steadily making our way through the chapters of Face by Benjamin Zephiniah. If you didn’t know anything about my students, you might not be impressed with them. But to hear some of the volunteering to read is amazing, especially from three of the lads who, I’m told, in the past wouldn’t even bother raising their hands.

One of the lads, “Laurence” suggested reading the next chapter as a script. I told him we could do it, forgetting the fact that I was going to be observed the next time we met as a class. Usually, when you’re about to have an observation, people play it nice and safe. I’d already made a commitment to my students about doing it up as a drama activity, so I went ahead and did it anyway. It’s funny ‘cuz my learning zone leader (department chair) (LZL) said it was really ambitious of me to try this. It wasn’t a matter of being ambitious at all; it was a matter of doing right by my students.

I went ahead and adapted Chapter 4. My LZL knew what I was up to and she helped me structure the lesson to the general standards the observation people would be referring to. In all seriousness, it probably wouldn’t have gone so well if I hadn’t had help.

I was all nervous about it this morning. Then I saw Michael; usually he is only in Monday through Wednesday, but because he isn’t going to be around towards the end of the month, he was making up days now. He said he’d be in my class to help out. At first, I thought it was kind of odd, but later I would discover that it was actually beneficial. Not like I don’t like him being there, in fact, I wish he was there more often for some of my classes; it was more the fact that when I think of observations, I think of ‘em as being a thing done with just me if that makes any sense.

So anyway, I set up the room in such a way that we would have a “stage” area. Just as I’d feared when I received the message that I would be re-observed for the same class, only five students showed up. I knew a few of them would be gone because of college (like work study) and that three of ‘em were in in-school detention, but still…five of seventeen? (Not to be confused with Seven-of-Nine.)

We got through the “boring” stuff all right. One of the first things we did was read the chapter in prose form in order to help us understand the difference between prose and script format, as well as give us an idea of what the blocking might be. There were some other mini-activities we did before tackling the script.

Now here’s where things get a bit amusing; two of the students who were absent from class showed up just as we were allocating parts. It’s amusing because for some reason, their time tables have them in a free period during our class for Week 2, but they came anyway because they knew we would be doing the script the second half of class. They said they were there to “help out”. I was just happy to have seven students!

Not long after their arrival, the observers came in. I kinda ignored ‘em ‘cuz I was too busy helping the students in the blocking process. I really didn’t care that they were there, in fact, to me they were kinda in the way. I was more focused on trying to get “Scott” to dance (he was brave enough to take on the main character, but didn’t really think about the part where Martin has to show off his dance moves). To make things even more…interesting, Scott and Laurence were supposed to have a dance off. This made me nervous only because the first day of class, the two of them almost came to blows. I know what you’re thinking — why cast them opposite each other then? Honestly, I didn’t want to maneuver it in such a way that would raise their suspicion. I mean, Laurence volunteered to be Other Dancer ‘cuz he knew how to break dance, and getting Scott to volunteer to be Martin was yet another amazing thing ‘cuz he’s usually reluctant to participate.

I had absolutely nothing to worry about. In fact, they seemed to get along great in the scene. I was really proud of them.

Michael played the part of the Drug Pusher, which is fine by me, but I thought it a little strange. Again, I would discover that it was actually a good thing.

We had to go through it a few times ‘cuz for one thing, it isn’t a drama class and for another, their attention span is about as focused as mine is when I’m not playing the part of a teacher.

In the end, I didn’t care if I got a low mark for the observation because the students really enjoyed the activity. In fact, one of them said to me afterward that he thought he had a better idea of the chapter after having done that. I couldn’t tell if he was being serious, but when I had my feedback with Mr McCullagh, he said he saw the same boy in a different class completely disengaged from the lesson. Hence, I’ve come to take “Mikhail”’s comment a little more seriously.

After the class, Shelby and Miss Williams said they heard good things about the lesson. I brushed it off ‘cuz I think they got their impressions from Michael, and Michael is probably one of the most positive and encouraging people I know. Again, later, I would discover that Miss Williams heard more information from Mr McCullagh and still she told me it went well. Mr McCullagh stopped by to give me unofficial feedback and said he thought it was a good lesson.

I dared to be hopeful it didn’t suck.

After school, Mr McCullagh came to my classroom to give me my official score. We went through the observation matrix and he asked me how I thought I did on each point and then gave me the official marks. I was actually pretty accurate in my self-evaluation except on two points where I gave myself a lower score than where it actually ended up. Remember how I mentioned having Mike there was actually a beneficial thing? Well, one of the sections on the matrix is about how I use the ALTs in the class. Mr McCullagh said I made great use of Mike; which really threw me off ‘cuz as far as I’m concerned, Mike is more of a colleague than an ALT. (Seriously, I have no idea why it is Mike isn’t a full-time teacher.)

Overall, I got a 2 — which is pretty good for a first-year non-British trained teacher. Of course, I’m not kidding myself into believing it will always be like this because if you want to know the truth, the only reason I scored so well was because it was a small class, it was a drama activity, and I had help from Miss Williams.

Apart from all that, doing the activity made me realize just how much I actually miss drama. I’m hoping that once I get my head above water, I can get involved a bit more with activities. Peter, the other English department cover teacher guy, was actually putting together a flyer for a drama workshop that I might try and help out with. But again, I have to break surface first.

I am not eleven

I really don’t know how to relate to eleven-year-olds. I had my Year 7 students today and it’s a wonder we ever get anything done. They just don’t listen! They really vexed me…wait, scratch that, they really vex me.

I think I’m also bothered by it because there was an incident between two of the boys in my form class (homeroom). It didn’t happen in my class, but when I was returning some materials to my department chair, she was consoling “David”. Apparently, some of the other boys were picking on him and calling him names, including “Kevin”, whose father I’m already having a meeting with on Monday concerning Kevin’s behavior. I was especially pissed to find out there was some other trouble when we were on the Year 7 trip again involving the other boys picking on David, calling him gay and stuff like that. I was so angry I couldn’t speak, not even to comfort David; he’s one of the good ones and so help me if we lose him ‘cuz of the bullying I’ll be pretty pissed.

I don’t get it. But then again, I’m not eleven.

Serenity Anniversary 2008

I won’t be able to watch the BDM this year, but I already went to a screening of it for Can’t Stop the Serenity. I wish I could throw a party, but the anniversary fell on a Tuesday this time around and it’s kinda hard to do when you work and stuffs. Oh yeah, and when you have no friends (yet). :-P

So Happy Anniversary to the Big Damn Movie!

Keep flyin’ — Can’t Stop the Signal

There’s no place I can be
Since I found Serenity
You can’t take the sky from me

I think I found a sword school…!

Holy crap, if I could do this…that would make moving to this country SO worth it!

The Boar’s Tooth has Friday classes at a location that is relatively easy for me to get to.

Pleasure overload…pleasure overload….!

Laundry Day in Greater London

It’s official. Doing laundry in this country sucks. How sad is it that it was easier to do laundry in Japan than it is in England? Maybe it’s just this particular washer and dryer, but so far, it’s all a big fat not-so-much.

Maybe I should try and find a laundry mat and I can meet some cool characters like Billy and Penny. There would be singing, dancing, freezing, the whole lot!

Laundry really shouldn’t take this long…

The stuff I keep forgetting to mention

I live by horses. Did I say that? When I come home from school I usually see them chomping away on some grass and hay in the field along my street.

The houses here have names. Like “October House”. Not all of ‘em but there are quite a few down one of the main roads that do. I wonder how they get their mail.

The washers in this country seem to suck. Maybe I’m just used to the washer I have at home and the ones I used in Japan, but the ones here (I’m in the process of getting some laundry done) seem to take for flippin’ ever. Seriously. I think I put the wash in like an hour ago and it’s still washin’. What’s up with that? Also, they don’t have like regular ol’ detergent, they do this weird capsule thing.

I have made it my mission to go to the British Museum next Saturday. I still have yet to do much sightseeing and touristy stuff. I should really put in more of an effort with that as much as with my lesson planning.

I had pizza for dinner last night, and I don’t know what Grant was on about ‘cuz it wasn’t that bad. Then again, we went to a fancy California Pizza Kitchen-esque pizza place and we were served by an Italian, like with the accent and everything. ‘Twas pretty good, but the Brits are all proper with their stuff and eat with a fork and knife. Not like we don’t, but it didn’t help that the knife didn’t cut all that well. I resorted to being an American and got as far as cutting up the pizza then used my hands.

My hermit lifestyle continues as I barely went out yesterday, and don’t really know that I’ll really be out much today. For the most part I’ve been revisiting How I Met Your Mother and that keeps me pretty happy. I’m supposed to be planning and stuff, especially now that I have a change with my Year 9’s.

But yeah. I live by horses. Houses here have names. Washing machines are unimpressive to me. The pizza I tried wasn’t that bad. Oh bloody hell, I just discovered how to make the ¥ on my computer. Wait, never mind. I had John when I was living in Japan. But this led me to find the £ sign. Yay! Now I can write it correctly. Sorry.

Where was I? Oh yeah. Planning. I gotta start planning. I also have to start being more social or something like that. Even though I’m perfectly happy to just hide out on my own. And again, the question comes up about whether I ought to live alone or with people. For money purposes, and possibly to keep me from being a hermit, I ought to try and live with people. But we all know how well I love people.

Right, right. Sorry. Planning. Must start procrastinating…I mean planning!! ARGH!!!

Have a good Sunday people! I miss y’all!